Walking through dark moments

This journey I'm on is not an easy one.   Ever since I announced that my tumor has shrunk to 1/2 inch the end of December, the enemy has been on my heels.   I've been dealing with kidney stones and inflamed diverticuli.   I've struggled with depression.   It's so hard to fight this fight when you don't feel good.   I've struggled this whole month because it's the month I found out about my cancer last year.   Yes, God has been good and so very faithful.   He has been my strength and seen me/us through last year.   I think it's stirred up a mixed bag of emotions.   I've seen his hand move in my life in mighty ways, ways I've never experienced before and that is overwhelming in itself.   He has answered so many prayers and yet, I am still afraid of what the future holds.   I've struggled with fear and anxiety this month.   I don't want anyone who reads this blog to think it's all been easy.   This is HARD!   My family is affected daily by all of this.   Our lives have been turned upside down.   Our routines and schedules aren't what they were a year ago.   Nothing is the same here.   It's all a "new normal".   I've struggled with my perspective on all of this lately.   I must choose to keep my focus on Jesus, and right now, that is minute by minute.    I can't look to the left or the right.   He knows what I can handle even when I don't.   I'm so glad He already knows all this about me and knows how to help me as I cry out to Him.

Sharing from the heart,

Molly

Great is Thy Faithfulness

As I reflect over the past year, I am pondering of all the ways God has blessed me.   There have been many difficult days this past year, but He was with me through each hard step along the way.  He was with me in the good steps as well.  I'm reminded of the hymn "Great Is Thy Faithfulness" and all that I have to be grateful for of my Heavenly Father.  No matter what goes on in our lives, He is always there, ever faithful. He keeps His promises to us. He promises that He “will never fail you or abandon you” (Heb. 13:5b). And He continuously provides for our needs, both great and small.   Reflect on the words of this hymn and give thanks for all that He has done in your life in the past year.


Great is Thy Faithfulness

Great is Thy faithfulness, O God my Father;

There is no shadow of turning with Thee;

Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not;

As Thou hast been, Thou forever will be.

Refrain

Great is Thy faithfulness!

Great is Thy faithfulness!

Morning by morning new mercies I see.

All I have needed Thy hand hath provided;

Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me!


Summer and winter and springtime and harvest,

Sun, moon and stars in their courses above

Join with all nature in manifold witness

To Thy great faithfulness, mercy and love.


Pardon for sin and a peace that endureth

Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide;

Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow,

Blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside!


Blessings,

Molly

I heard from the radiologist this afternoon.....

The report shows that the tissue in question is indeed healing tissue and not tissue that is spreading. This is wonderful news!!!!!!!! He also commented that there were a few lesions in the right lung and they are almost non existent! We'll stay the course and hope that the next CT scan shows even better results. Needless to say, we're all doing the happy dance at our house! Praise God with us!


Living with hope,

Molly

As I reflect on the past year and look forward to the New Year.....

… that he has shown them according to his mercy, according to the abundance of his steadfast love.
 ~ Isaiah 63:7c

Today on this last day of this year as I reflect on how generous God has been and is to us. As we look back on the year and all that’s happened to us, there are lots of mixed feelings.  We've had our struggles and fears.   We've had heartache and pain.  We have been touched with rest and relief; as well as moments of joy and comfort too. While it’s easy to focus on what has gone wrong, we must refocus on what has gone right. God has joined us and is accompanying us on this journey.  He understands our distress.  He is bringing help in every moment of need.  This is cause for celebration and relief!

As this year closes and another is about to begin, help me Lord to not  focus just on what has been hard for me. Instead help me find  encouragement and hope in recounting all that has blessed and uplifted me this year. There are more blessings than I can say. Thank you, O God. Amen.