Resting in His Arms…

I just wanted to update you all since you have all been praying for my mom since she found out about her lung cancer...    


Molly N. beloved wife, mother, and friend is now resting in the arms of her Lord and Savior where there is no more sorrow or pain.  She died peacefully tonight in a deep sleep without any pain and was surrounded by her family and close friends.  Mom was an extremely strong fighter and was a true blessing to so many people…

Thank you so very much for your prayers and concern for our family.  Our family will always treasure your love and support during this time.  Mom always loved to write and encourage others on this blog, and she loved each one of you.  We are resting in the fact that she is in a much better place now.  God was ready for her to come home, so He must still have a plan for the rest of the family here on earth.   We will make it through this  difficult time, but only with His strength.

In Christ Alone,
Emily (for the rest of the Nichols family)

Update on Mom {Saturday}

Please feel free to pass along this prayer request to anyone that you know...

Mom still needs prayers that her platelets will increase and that her kidneys will function properly. Yesterday, she was a little responsive.  She answered yes and no questions by shaking her head and when dad asked if she wanted to see us, she even opened her eyes.  The doctor said something to the effect that these next 24 hours are critical for her, though... 

Thank you all for praying for our family!  We are so thankful for your love and support for our family.  I'll update again when I can...

Trusting in Him, 

Emily

Update on Mom...

Mom was moved to ICU yesterday.  She is okay but very sick.  They have her on a ventilator to help her relax in her breathing.  She has something down her throat that is trying to help get the fluid off of her lungs.  She was alert earlier when we were there, but now she is pretty sedated.  She can't talk with the thing in her throat but she was able to squeeze our hands. They feel like with her in ICU that the nurse can monitor her better.  I will try to update again soon. 


~Emily (Molly's daughter)

Urgent Prayer Request

Please be praying for mom and the rest of our family...  

Mom had chemo last Monday and on Thursday, she woke up with a terrible sore throat.  She had a reaction to the chemo and it's called chemo mucositis.  She wasn’t able to eat or drink for a few days because of it so she got really dehydrated.  My dad took her to the ER Saturday morning and they said that she was dehydrated and she has pneumonia.  She hasn't eaten since Thursday because it hurts to eat, so she is really weak.  She has been eating ice, but that is definitely not enough.  The goal for the week is to help her throat to feel better, so she can talk without hurting, get her pneumonia under control, and to get her to eat food again. 
Under the circumstances she is doing well but it's hard to see her like this.  They did put her on oxygen yesterday because her throat is extremely swollen, so her breathing levels were up and down.  When we left the hospital last night, she was doing better than when Katie got there earlier, but she said it was pretty scary earlier.  I had something to do all day to keep my mind of everything, so I'm glad I wasn't there at that time.   We have already had quite a few breakdowns.  We have never seen her like this before and it’s really scary.  I know that God is in control of everything that happens, but it’s hard to trust that everything is going to be alright when it feels like everything is falling apart.  

That's about it for now.  Her main doctor comes back today (he has been on vacation), so we will find out more.  I'll keep you updated!  Thank you for all your prayers and concern. 

In Christ,
Emily (Molly's daughter)

Prayer request

I went to my thyroid doctor today and she had run many tests as she usually does. The liver and kidney levels do not look good. The iron level is very high as well. It was 44 last year and this year is 3000. It should be below 100. I've asked Dr. W (the oncologist) about how my kidney and liver were looking in the past and he always says fine. I've never seen the results, just trusted he knew what he was doing. I have been having trouble being anemic for the past week and a half. Things are not improving so I'm going to see him tomorrow. Please pray that my dh and I will have favor with him as we share the results from my thyroid doctor with him. I'm a little nervous about that plus I don't feel well and am tired and emotional. Something has to be done about my kidneys and liver levels though and the iron level as well. My dh said I looked yellow yesterday so my color is off. This is new territory for me and a tad bit scary.

Please pray for our children and that they will rest in the arms of Jesus as we walk through this. I've had a few breakdowns lately and as much as I try to be strong for them, I can only do so much. The reality of all of this hits hard when the Mama can't hold herself together, ya know? 

Thanks for your prayers and I'll update when I can.

Love,

Molly

I am dealing with anemia right now and would appreciate your prayers.

I had a shot of medicine that is suppose to increase your red blood cells last Friday.    I do feel a little better this week, but certainly not how I want to feel.    I'm still weak.    We called the doctor this morning and he says to give it a few more days and if I'm not stronger by next Monday or Tuesday, he wants to check it again.    Please pray that I will feel better and get my strength back.    I'm weary from the different trials I have to encounter after each chemo session.    Since February, I've had a set back each time.   If I'm going to have to do chemo, I sure want to feel better and not just exist.    Pray for my children as well.   They are concerned for me and that I'm not bouncing back.

Blessings,

Molly

Just wanted to share that the CT scan shows the fluid is GONE, there are less cells than last time, and that the radiation on the esophagus is decreasing! This is an answer to my prayer request! God is good!


It was hard for the nurses to find my veins this time, so instead of three sticks, I got five this time. I will be calling in the morning to see about getting a mediport appointment in May for sure. :-) Dr. Walker wants me to stop the inhaler and thinks that is what has been causing me to be so hoarse. Also, the chemo I'm taking causes sinus issues, so it could be that. We'll try dropping the inhaler now that the fluid is less and hope that takes care of the hoarseness. I surely hope so. If you could pray about the hoarseness and that the sinus issues would be minimal that would be great.

I finally got the nerve up to ask the doctor today as I know many of you have asked when will I be finished with chemo. I am on a maintenance dose of chemo on a four week schedule. The type of lung cancer I have responds to this mixture of chemo as long as you stay on the maintenance dose. If you stop the chemo, within four to six weeks, the cancer would multiply rapidly. So, at this point, I will be continuing the maintenance dose . Of course, we are still trusting the Lord for complete healing. As long as I'm not sick with any other illnesses or the chemo tiredness, I am able to function at about 80% of what I used to do, so I am thankful for that. The Lord has helped me through 2.4 years now and I'm trusting him to restore my health and that I will live a long time.

I am thankful for each prayer you have prayed on our behalf! May each of you be blessed for your faithfulness to pray for us.

In Him,

Molly

I'm still here. I'm sorry to have not updated before now, but we had

a hard winter with lots of sickness in our family.   Our family has never been so sick before.   My husband managed to stay well, thank the Lord.    We have variations of the flu, bronchitis, strep throat, pneumonia, sinusitis, and the common cold from mid-February until two weeks ago.   I am still recovering from pneumonia and strep throat, but praise the Lord, I feel better than I did a week ago.    I got very weak from the strep throat because I couldn't eat since my throat hurt so bad.   I have been SO hungry for the past two weeks so I've been trying to eat and drink as much as I can.   It's helping me to get stronger.   I am also on Prednisone so that isn't helping my appetite.   I'm usually not phased by Prednisone, but I have been this time.

I'm really glad to see spring come.   This winter was very hard for me and I've struggled with depression.   Being sick on top of that has left me a little battle weary.   I've not been this low spiritually since all of this began.   I'm trying to read or listen to the Word more often and watching what comes out of my mouth.   I so want to have confidence in what His Word says and that that Truth will nestle deep down inside of me again.   I want it to be life to me again.    Please pray I can get my eyes back on Him and his Word and not on the circumstances.

I will be having a CT scan on Monday to see if the fluid they saw two months ago has gone.    Please pray that it is and that there are no new cancer cells.    Also, please be praying that the radiation that is on my esophagus is gone.   I had radiation in that area back in October and the last CT scan showed it was still there.   That combined with the chemo makes me cough a lot.   I'm praying that they won't find anything and that the Lord will heal me of this dreadful disease.   Cancer changes your life in many ways, some good and some bad.

I do have some praises that are worthy to be mentioned and He deserves the glory for them.    We received a check for a large amount of money a few months ago from a group of people.   I don't know who they are as the card was not signed.   If you were amongst that group of people, THANK YOU for the blessing!!!   It was timely and greatly needed.    We appreciate your generosity so much!    My daughter received the money she needs for the summer school session she has to take, praise God!    The Lord has been blessing my husband with extra work to earn extra money at his job.   That is a huge praise in this economy!   We have many extra expenses with medical bills, food and medicine needs, and of course, as you all are experiencing as well, the cost of living just keeps rising.   We are thankful for his job and that we have very good insurance.    So far this year, my medical charges have been over $200,000 and it's only April.   Thankfully, most of what we have to pay is a $35.00 co-pay and our $1500 deductible, but that does add up quickly when you go to the doctor at least three times a month.    I just have to trust the Lord with all of it because it is way too big for me.  

Thank you for continuing to follow my blog and for your continued prayers for our family!   Please pray that the Lord will heal me completely.   I am trusting Him for that.

God bless you,

Molly

To God Be the Glory!

This week marks two years since I found out I had cancer. I cannot let this time go by without giving Him praise as we stand in awe at what the Lord has done in these past two years. Doctors will tell you all the statistics, etc., but we chose to not listen to them. I AM NOT A STATISTIC in God's eyes and I refuse to listen to the what if's and predictions that the doctors say about my situation. As a friend told me early on in this walk, only God knows the day He will call each of us home. 

One of the things that we've learned through this journey has been to truly be thankful for each day and use it for His glory serving Him, doing His will and walking with Him. Each day is not a guarantee, but truly a gift from above. It's so easy to get caught up on the merry go round of things that life throws at us, that we begin to keep God at arm's length and then He is put further and further away. He wants to be involved in our lives every day, not just when it is convenient or problems arise.

We're also learning that what used to bother or concern us, we just really need to put in the Lord's hands and let Him take care of it. He told us to not worry or have anxiety or fret, but to pray and watch expectantly to see what He will do. He told us numerous times in His word to not be anxious, so I've really tried to pray about things and just release them. With all the extra medical expenses this past year, I've had to really learn to let go of that care. We've been amazed to see His hand move. We were blessed several times with financial gifts because God knew we needed it. He is such a loving and caring God! He really does care about His children and all the details of our lives. I can't tell you how many times I'd receive a call, card, visit, meal, or gift just when I really needed it. Those things just confirmed to me how much He truly loves me. 

We have also learned in the past two years about the power of prayer. We can look back over the past two years and see where His hand has moved in mighty ways. He has answered so many of our prayers I can't remember them all. YOU have been a part of those answered prayers and we are so very thankful for each prayer you've prayed on behalf of our family. This journey isn't just about us. Every person that has been a part of this journey is learning something new about the Lord. This is just an avenue He is using to draw us all closer to Him. How many times have you prayed for us and we got the answer and got excited to see how He answered it? God has been so good to us and He alone deserves all the glory, praise, and honor. 

I am truly thankful to be alive today and to be feeling almost like I did before all this started. Praise Him with me! I do covet your continued prayers that I continue to do well and for complete healing. Pray that our faith will continue to grow as we trust Him with the future. There is still a battle to be fought in the mind, body, and for our faith. Pray that we will obey Him and leave the consequences to Him.

Thank you to each of you that have supported us through these past two years and for walking this journey with us!

Love,

Molly

As I reflect on the past year and look forward to the New Year....

*I wrote this post last January 1, 2010 and re-read it today.   I can't help but re-post it because it says exactly what I would want to say again today as we begin a new year.  I made a few changes and hope you don't mind the re-post.  :-)
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As I reflect on the past year and look forward to the New Year..... 


"Now to him who is able to accomplish abundantly far more than all we can ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work in us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen." - Ephesians 3:20-21~

Today on this last day of this year as I reflect on how generous God has been and is to us. As we look back on the year and all that’s happened to us, there are lots of mixed feelings.  We've had our struggles and fears.   We've had heartache and pain.  We have been touched with rest and relief; as well as moments of joy and comfort too. While it’s easy to focus on what has gone wrong, we must refocus on what has gone right. God has joined us and is accompanying us on this journey.  He understands our distress.  He is bringing help in every moment of need.  This is cause for celebration and relief! 

As this year closes and another is about to begin, help me Lord to not  focus just on what has been hard for me. Instead help me find  encouragement and hope in recounting all that has blessed and uplifted me this year. There are more blessings than I can say.  Thank you for seeing us through another year.   While it has been the hardest year of my life, you have been faithful to walk with me through it.   Help me to have an attitude of gratitude, for you have done exceedingly more for us than we could ever imagine.  Thank you, Lord.  Amen.

A devotion to share with you.

I will give to the Lord the thanks due to his righteousness, and sing praise to the name of the Lord, the Most High. ~    Psalm 7:17 

Cancer survivors understand that gratitude is at the very heart of creating an atmosphere of healing. Survivors know that it is essential to be in the right state of mind to focus on hope for the journey. They believe that living thankfully and appreciatively is a profound requirement for achieving the state of well-being they seek. Being mindful of the need to find goodness and count blessings is ever-present in a survivor’s life. They focus on what is right and what is good, what is positive and what is eternal. They look beyond temporary setbacks to seek evidence of lasting answers and help. When they do they find the evidence they need.  

The more I look for the blessings you give me, dear God, the more I see signs and wonders of your amazing love. Every time I realize one good thing you do, I come to recognize there are so many more good things than I never knew before. Thank you for compounding the blessings in my life. Amen.

(Reprinted from Foundation for Cancer Research and Wellness)

I just wanted to pass on the good news I received at my doctor's visit yesterday.   I went in for a check up on my bloodwork.   All of it came back fine.   This is where he watches the white platelet counts, the hemoglobin level, and the white blood cell counts so he can determine if I need another white platelet shot or a transfusion.    He was pleased with that and how I am feeling that he moved my maintenance chemo from December 27 until January 3rd!!   Yay!   Now, I can have time off with the children during their break and not feel bad.

I asked him for further information on why I need to to the maintenance chemo.    He said that studies show in my particular case, that doing IV maintenance chemo is more successful at keeping the cancer at bay than by using the oral chemo.   He told me to look at it as people who have to take blood pressure medicine everyday and not just see at as I'm getting chemo every four to five weeks.   They need that medicine to maintain their blood pressure just like I need this to keep the cancer at bay, thus extending my life.   Many cancer survivors live with maintenance  chemo.    I heard of a person yesterday that has been getting maintenance chemo for 16 years and she lives a full life.   That's incredibly amazing to me and such encouragement to me!     I will be getting a much less amount of chemo every four to five weeks than when we were doing it every three weeks.    It will only take ten minutes for the maintenance chemo to go in, plus I will continue to get the bone strengthening medicine that takes fifteen minutes.    We're unsure how it will affect me.   He said some people are just very tired the next day and then they are fine.   Others it might affect them like it did me this time with tiredness, headache and nausea for five days.    So, we'll just have to see what happens.

I have to tell you this and then I'll close.   I felt bad from Wednesday after chemo until this Tuesday.   I started feeling better on Wednesday, so I made a list of errands I needed to run soon.   I had eleven places I needed to go, so I thought if I feel good on Thursday, I'll do half then and the other half on Friday or Saturday.   Well, I left the house with Emily at 2:00 on Thursday and we ran all 11 errands.   We got home that evening and I was still feeling good!!!!!!!!!!!   Yay!   We took time to eat a salad while we were out so I rested then and got a second wind, so off we went.   I cannot tell you how good it felt to be out and about and not feel bad or tired. I felt like the "real Molly" again.  :-)  PTL!

So when I went to the doctor on Friday, he asked me how I was feeling and I said, "I feel like a resurrected Frosty the Snowman" and he laughed.   I told him I had run 11 errands the day before and that I felt good on Friday as well.   He just grinned and said, "This is wonderful news!"   Later on, I asked him how he thought I was doing and was he pleased with my progress.   He looked at me and he said, "You told me that you ran 11 errands yesterday and felt good.   Molly, most healthy people can't run 11 errands in one day.   So, I think you're doing incredible!"   To come from where I've been these past six months, I truly have felt like a breathe of fresh wind has been put in my body and I am alive again!   To God be the Glory, Great Things He Has Done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Living with hope again,

Molly 

Thanks to those of you who continue to follow my blog even though I don't post often.   I really appreciate your faithfulness.  2010 has been a hard year for me, but I'll try to do better in the coming year.  Thanks for sticking with me! :-)

Blessings,

Molly

Praise Him with us.............

Hey there,

I just wanted to update you all on my visit to the surgical oncologist at Duke yesterday. She took an xray and the arm is healing just like she was hoping. PTL!  She said that I am NOT a candidate for surgery! YAY!!!!! There is calcium "caulking" growing around the the fractured area which is supporting the arm. That "caulking" will eventually fill in the fracture but it will be a slow process because I'm still doing chemo. Once the chemo stops, the body will go to work in healing up that area just like in a normal, healthy person's body. Chemo slows the healing process down in cancer patients. 

We were very relieved to hear that I am not a candidate for surgery. I will begin physical therapy the week after Thanksgiving. I probably won't ever be able to raise this arm above my head like I can with the left arm, but if we can get it up 75%, that will be good. Most people, even healthy people, don't get full use of their arm back if it gets broken where mine was broken. Surgery would not help improve those odds at all. I am just thankful I can use my arm and that I don't have to have surgery. I saw a few people up there with only one arm yesterday, so I am thankful to have both arms.

I have been given permission to drive as I feel up to it, so that is a great relief as well. Yay!

The esophagus burn is doing much better. I was able to eat chicken and brunswick stew yesterday. It was wonderful! My body is CRAVING oranges so I even ate one of those. It didn't cause acid reflux, so that was a relief!

We have so much to be thankful for today and every day. I continue to gain strength and feel more normal. I can do more than I could two weeks ago! PTL! I have one more chemo to do on 11/29. We'll do a CT scan and go from there as to whether I will have more chemo or not after the one on 11/29.

God has been so good to us! Praise His Holy Name!

Love you all,

Molly

Well, it was a long weekend around here.    We arrived at 6:30 Friday morning for the port and I didn't go back for surgery until 11:00 AM!   I'd been told there were a few people in front of me, but I didn't expect to have to wait that long.   The insertion went well, PTL!   I could feel the doctor putting the sutures in, but I was not aware of anything going on.   They put me in recovery and brought me a meal.   I was SO hungry that I broke my rule of "No more hospital food for me ever again."   I really only ate the hash brown potatoes and orange juice so it wasn't that much hospital food.  LOL!   Then they brought me a lunch meal and I ate off of that.   I have to say that the baked fish, coleslaw, and cornbread muffin were actually really good.   By Friday evening, I was in enough pain that I wondered why I signed up for the port.   Oxycodone didn't even touch the pain.   The only way to avoid the pain was to sit real still in my recliner.   So, that's where I spent the whole weekend.    I was also suffering from gastrointestinal inflammation from the radiation.   It got worse on Sunday morning.   It hurt to breathe or swallow and nothing was helping.   I called the doctor on call and did what he said to do and it calmed down some.    I knew I could see my doctor Monday, so I held out til my appointment.    He decided we couldn't do chemo today because that would just aggravate the gastro inflammation even more.   So, chemo is on hold until things calm down.   Radiation is on hold for the same reason.   He gave me some fluids and nausea medicine in an iv and that has helped me feel better this evening.    He also gave me some medicine (Carafate) to coat the esophagus so it can heal.   The esophagus has a sunburn from the radiation.    I will have more fluids this week and a blood transfusion because my hemoglobin level is low.    

The nurse was able to use my port this afternoon.   I am now convinced I made the right decision to have this done.   It pinched, but it was a lot better than a med tech digging around trying to find my veins!!!  :-)

So, several unexpected things to deal with but I am reminding myself that these have not caught the Lord off guard.   He is ordering my steps through this ordeal.   Pray I can rest in the assurance that He is in control, not me.   

Thanks for your faithful prayers, dear friends!

Love,

Molly

Update on CT scan and other things

I just wanted to update you all. The CT scan shows the tumor is SHRINKING!!!!!!!!!! Praise the Lord! My doctor is very pleased. He can see where the chemo is actually working on the left scapula and healing it. That area has not been hurting in a long time, so that must be why.   Also, praise the Lord that there is nothing new seen on the CT of the chest!  

I had my third chemo treatment today and that went well. I also was able to get the PICC line removed so now I have my left arm back in full use. Another praise! I can take a real shower in a couple of days! Yahoo!!! 

I will go back on Friday to get a shot of Neulasta which is the same shot that I had last month after chemo. It's the one that boosts white platelets so I don't end up in the hospital again.

There was mention today that I might begin radiation sooner than later so please be praying about that. Pray that there will be minimal side effects from it. The area they will be radiating is near the esophagus and I've heard of people having trouble with radiation in that area. I will be getting low doses of radiation for 15 days.

There was a problem on Friday with getting the port put in. My white platelets were too high due to the fact that I had a shot of Neulasta, which builds up white platelets. Now I will get the port put in on November 1st. Dr. Walker has already sent in the order and highlighted that the white platelets will be high because I am getting shots of Neulasta. I could've actually had it done this past Friday but the nurse didn't call Dr. Walker to question why the white platelets would be so high. 

Another praise is that I have been able to use less pain medicine. This also shows us that the chemo is working throughout the body to heal it. 

Thank you again for your faithful prayers! Rejoice with us about this good news! God is good!

Love you all,

Molly

An Update on Me.........

Well, I'll try to be brief, but that may be hard.   Lots of things have happened with me since my last post.   The MRI I have last three hours!!!  I was so tired of laying in the same position and it was FREEZING in there!   I was glad I had taken 20 mgs. of Valium before I went in.   Trust me, I needed every mg.   I'm a trooper with the CT scans now and they don't bother me.   Yay God!   The results from those tests didn't reveal anything new, just confirmed what we already knew, so that was actually a praise!   The cancer has spread to my thoraic area and I will be having radiation on that area.   I have changed doctors since my last post as well.   This doctor is a lung cancer specialist and I just love him.    He's a precious man, very compassionate and such a fighter for my life!  I am thankful the Lord led us to him.    I've had two chemo treatments since I posted.   The first one was a whammer and made me really sick.   I spent 11 days in the hospital.    My white platelets took a nosedive and it took a while to get them back up so I could get out of the hospital.    Apparently my body can not handle the level of drugs he gave me the first time, so he rearranged things for the second chemo and so far things are going fairly well.    I am having some nausea and tiredness, but so far none of the symptoms I had with the first chemo. I can tell you that I don't like hospitals.     I've never been away from my children more than three days, so that was very sad and depressing for me.   Hospitals are lonely and depressing.   I was blessed with great nurses who genuinely care about their patients.   I came away with a great respect for healthcare works in general.   They all earn ever dime they make.   Most everybody on my floor worked 12-14 hour shifts and were still kind when they left in the evening or morning. I don't know if I could be that good.  LOL!    Those workers are on their feet most of their shift, constantly meeting patient needs.   Kuddos to the healthcare workers!

Well, that about sums up what's been going on with me.   Please continue to pray for complete healing from all this.   Pray my broken humerus heals properly, that the next chemo treatments go well and that they kill the cancer cells.    I am so ready to get back to my normal way of living.   I've been sleeping in a recliner due to my broken arm since July.   It helps to have it propped up and having support behind my back helps keep the pain at bay.   Pray for my family as they deal with the stress of all of this.   It's taking it's toil on us all, but we are trying to persevere through the test.

Also, please pray for a special older friend of mine who was diagnosed with breast cancer a few weeks ago.   She's a precious, wise Christian woman who loves the Lord immensely.    Pray they caught it in time and that she will get well.    I'm not ready for her to meet Jesus yet.   She's a widow also, so pray she can get the help she needs as she recovers.

May God bless each of you as you seek His face and walk with Him!

Blessings,

Molly

I'm still here.  I've been very busy with summer activities,  trying to do some catching up around the house, and do school planning.  I have been enduring several health issues as well, so I have been trying to get well from those.   I'm learning that it is VERY HARD to walk through trials, especially several at a time, when you don't feel well.   I have either fractured or broken my arm and am waiting for an MRI on Friday morning as the doctor thinks there is something suspicious on the xray.  It's hard to type with one hand, so I doubt I'll be on here much.  Please pray for good MRI results and that what he sees is nothing but scar tissue from a lesion that was in the same area.  I honestly am tired from all these trials and am trying to live what I have shared on this blog.   Some days I just fail, but I am still human.  It's hard to count it all joy when you face trials.  Some days I can walk this walk of faith and some days I battle my mind in a BIG way!  Thanks for letting me be transparent and real and share how it really is right now.

Your prayers are appreciated!

Blessings until I post again -

Molly

Perfect and timely devotion for this season

"Now to him who is able to keep you from falling" …  Jude 24a

When the bottom is dropping out, we have a source of strength that can keep us from falling all the way.  God is our safety net, a very present help in times of trouble.   When we feel as if we cannot find our footing again, God catches us and carries us when we cannot walk the path on our own.  When we find ourselves in a free fall, there are arms already reaching out for us to lift us from our distress.

When I think about it, I do know that you have reached out to catch me before, dear God.  I have been rescued in more ways than I can count.  I am grateful for that and I pray for the help to remember those times more and more each day.  Amen. 

Blessings,

Molly

Just need to say this....

I've received comments since I started this blog about how strong I am and what a great attitude I have about all of this.   I just need to say that I don't want anyone to think I have conquered this situation.  I do have days where I am really battling my flesh while fighting this fight.   I have had times where I have soared through the day with amazing faith.  I have also had times where I am down in the dumps and fighting hard to walk by faith.   This is by far the hardest thing I've ever walked through.   These posts are written to encourage myself as well as anyone who reads this blog.   I often go back and read through them to remind myself where we have come from so I can see God's faithfulness in this journey.   I must remind myself of the great things God has done for us and what I've learned through this.   I'm thankful that my Father is strong when I am weak.  I'm also thankful that He has promised to never leave me nor forsake me.  He is with me always.    May God continue to grant us strength for the journeys we find ourselves walking.  

Blessings,

Molly